i'm stuck..

stuck in this place between what I see and where/what I want to be and where/what God wants me to be

I want to live for God, do God's work.. use music to bring glory to God and to usher people into His presence..

On the other side of that, I have obstacles on my plate right now.. distractions, bills, debt, temptations, discouragement, not being able to afford school

I told the Lord that I give it all to Him, and I want it to really mean something, for those words to penetrate my being so that the words become alive and true, but I get discouraged sometimes, because doing God's work brings sacrifice. Sacrifice of time, money (or so it seems, because of the lack of work not allowing me to do all that I want to do for Him), friends (my outside friends), sacrifice of self. I know the sacrifice is worth it, which is why I continue on this journey.

I want to travel the world, but doing that in a mission/Christian type setting, I feel like I don't know enough like the "big-shot" pastors and so on, so I get a little discouraged at times... All I have is my testimony and how God has worked tremendously in my life. The joy that He has given me makes me want to take it to the 4 corners of this earth.

I don't know